Life :)

QCS is tomorrow. The big test that counts on all of year 12 in Queensland to do and then ranks them as to where they sit in the logical field. Im not that nervous about it. Just a little... Im gonna be so brain dead for the next 2 afternoons.

I dont understand why QCS has to be based around everyone's results. It seems a bit unfair to me...

Well the weekend just gone was one of the greatest I have had in a while. Although I was a bit down on Friday night I started singing and then did some ballet and all was good. It reminded me that God gave me those also to use when I need something to lift my mood :)

Saturday I went off to a group with the leading and world renowned aspergers professional Tony Atwood. This was really good for Liam (brother), Dan (boyfriend) and I to go to. We went to understand my sister and cusins better and it really helped. It was also really cool to meet some of the other people there who had the same type of people in their family and how they help understand them.

Saturday night Dan, Kirsten and I headed off to see the final ever Harry Potter movie and I cried and they giggled at me because Im a big sook lol.

Sunday I went to church in the morning and God was doing some awesome things in me. During worship He gave me the verse Jerimiah 49:14 ("I have heard a message from the LORD: An envoy was sent to the nations to say, "Assemble yourselves to attack it! Rise up for battle!") and showed me that we all need to remember that this is a battle and that we have to be ready to fight satan off at all times by wearing the armour of God.

That afternoon Dan helped me learn my drama lines and my brother and sister helped too. Bre played dead Ceasar and Liam played Brutus and Cassius while Dan read all the lines I told bre and liam where to be so I could pretend they were saying the lines. Of course they both found this hilarious and spent the whole time giggling. Im saying my super depressing Mark Antony speach and Ceasars dead body is giggling her head off lol. It was really funny :P

I am so glad that I have all of these people in my life. God, Dan, Bre, Liam, Kirsten, Mum and Dad, Julie and Rick. They make life so much fun and are really encouraging. I get to have an awesome God who I love more than anything else. Dan my soulmate and then two awesome families. Its great :)

3 assesments down - Maths -assignment, Music -composition, Music - Analysis
8 assesments to go - 2 Maths exams, Multi strand exam, Muti strand assignment, Music performance, Music Extension performance, drama performance, English in class essay over a week.

Oh and...
QCS next tuesday and wednesday -.-

Why must there be so much to do? Im so ready to graduate! Its good though. God is with me and His peace helps me get through it all.

God works in many different ways

I have noticed that everyones relationship with God is different. It is amazing to think that everyone's connection to God works in a different way. Some connect through prayer best, some through worship best, some through acts of kindness best. Everyone can do all of these things but everyone has something that brings them close to their father in heaven.

Also the line 'Jesus, lover of my soul' is really striking a chord with me. He is the lover of our soul. Everyone says that the closest human relationship is that of man and wife as they are your human soulmate and they become one being. Jesus is already that with his children. He is not just our soulmate but the true lover of our soul. NOTHING we do could ever turn him away. His complete unconditional, consistent love is more than that of any human. When things get tough, just like in the 'footprints' poem he carries us. Something I like to think about when life gets hard is God rocking me, curled up like a baby but still at this age, in his huge, protective arms. That is my safe place. I know that no matter what humans do to me he will always hold me tight in his arms and never let me down or let me go.

I know its hard and strange to think about Gods love for us like this but God made all love. He loves us as a master, a friend, a father and as his bride. We are the church and the church is his bride. Its like every type of love ever then combine them all and multiply it by a thousand and its still no where near how much he loves us. That just blows my mind. I love my father in heaven and will always be safe in his arms. When things get tough remember that he carries you and never leaves.

The happenings of the last few weeks

Haven't blogged in forever....
Here is what has been missed.

- I sent in my QTAC the day it opened. It was really exciting actually. My first four were all at QUT because it is my dream uni. My dad went there and I want to follow on. My first preference was a dual degree Bachelor of Behavioural Science (Phycology) and Bachelor of Social Work. Im so excited Im going to be a phycologist social worker and help teens and kids.
See when I was in year 8 I got off the bus one day and God said to me to do phycology sort of work so Im following that and every preference was in the social work, human services or phycology field. Im so excited to help people like me.
- Im doing my testimony in chapel in a few weeks and am quite nervous but excited at the same time :)
- I got sick, quite sick for two weeks and layed at home feeling disgusting. Managed to keep in e-mail contact with my teachers though so didnt miss much.
- I have learned that sometimes with his step I just have to smile or i might slowly loose my sanity.
- Its Dan's 18th birthday today and I have spent the last few days working on his present its a mixed media art piece and took me flipping forever. Im kinda proud of it though :) Tonight Im going to his place and cooking him a wonderful dinner and watching movies yay!!! And then tomorrow Im off to Bribie with his step and dad and the littluns to go to the beach.
- QCS is in a few weeks and im surprisingly calm about it. Im still nervous but not as bad as I thought I would be.
- Im not behind with school work in fact im keeping up if not ahead which is good. Stress levels at a minimum. I do have to learn my drama lines though..... :/

Well Im sure you probably dont really care about any of this but I wanted to blog again. So to make this blog less pointless here is a pretty picture for you to look at :P  Oh and only 6 months until everything changes!!!!! Some of you know what Im talking about :) Im so excited. There is currently a pile of furniture in my garage that we have just been given. Good quality stuff. Its all coming together :)